I have a "virtual" friend; her name is Nicole. I'm not sure even how we are connected. If I should know, I don't remember. I blame Confirmation Sponsor Guy, and his merry band of...whatever they are. And I blame another friend, whom I shall christen "Lake McWheels," and trust he is not offended. Catholics find each other, and we don't even care how random it is. I digress.
What I mean to say is that Nicole here is a wise lady, and a darn good writer. God must be at work, and Mrs. DeMille must be pretty close to Him, (or at least on the way) because I'm pretty sure I'd not be handling her crosses as well as she does. That will embarrass her, and she will deny it. I say, "Humor me, lady. They tell me they're glad I get out at all." Sidebar: I usually take that stuff in stride, but I sense that some people aren't just uncomfortable; they don't respect me, and this is a way to do that while appearing kind. Moving on.
Well, sort of. That's probably the worst thing that anyone could say, (that they don't respect me) if someone did in fact say it. I am the king of destroying myself for a few laughs. It's not even a huge deal, because gentle mockery expresses fondness, and my friends know this. I am both vulnerable, and very proud. Anything that approaches humility in me was imposed from outside. That's the truth. I am glad I don't know what people think about me, unless they tell me. It would probably destroy me, like it would for most of us.
I take it back: Not everyone's bad opinion matters; just people whose opinion I respect. I'd rather you kill me than tell me this. Those wounds are the worst. I lose respect for myself from time to time, and that's good, because I come to God for my meaning and true worth, not to mention rebuilding, as it were. But D^%*, lose a true friend, lose respect, maybe never get it back, and then you can tell me how hard life is. Rant over. My apologies.
Lord Jesus, I give You my anger, sadness, and true sorrow over this old hurt, which You know. You know that I desire to forgive and be forgiven. One day, it will come. Until then, give me some small measure of peace. Amen.
Anyway, I'm proud to add Nicole's blog to those which you may peruse when you realize that this blog sucks. [Can a Catholic who aspires to sainthood say, "sucks"?--ed.] I don't know. Can a Christian who knows he should be Catholic and refuses to do it count on God's mercy? [You just watch it, buddy.--ed.] Just sayin'. Time to decide. It's actually the question of the century: "What is the Church, and am I in it?" And for the record, I'm not an apologist. I'm a snark-pologist. CtC wants to think you into the Church, and love you in. I am not that guy.
What I mean to say is that Nicole here is a wise lady, and a darn good writer. God must be at work, and Mrs. DeMille must be pretty close to Him, (or at least on the way) because I'm pretty sure I'd not be handling her crosses as well as she does. That will embarrass her, and she will deny it. I say, "Humor me, lady. They tell me they're glad I get out at all." Sidebar: I usually take that stuff in stride, but I sense that some people aren't just uncomfortable; they don't respect me, and this is a way to do that while appearing kind. Moving on.
Well, sort of. That's probably the worst thing that anyone could say, (that they don't respect me) if someone did in fact say it. I am the king of destroying myself for a few laughs. It's not even a huge deal, because gentle mockery expresses fondness, and my friends know this. I am both vulnerable, and very proud. Anything that approaches humility in me was imposed from outside. That's the truth. I am glad I don't know what people think about me, unless they tell me. It would probably destroy me, like it would for most of us.
I take it back: Not everyone's bad opinion matters; just people whose opinion I respect. I'd rather you kill me than tell me this. Those wounds are the worst. I lose respect for myself from time to time, and that's good, because I come to God for my meaning and true worth, not to mention rebuilding, as it were. But D^%*, lose a true friend, lose respect, maybe never get it back, and then you can tell me how hard life is. Rant over. My apologies.
Lord Jesus, I give You my anger, sadness, and true sorrow over this old hurt, which You know. You know that I desire to forgive and be forgiven. One day, it will come. Until then, give me some small measure of peace. Amen.
Anyway, I'm proud to add Nicole's blog to those which you may peruse when you realize that this blog sucks. [Can a Catholic who aspires to sainthood say, "sucks"?--ed.] I don't know. Can a Christian who knows he should be Catholic and refuses to do it count on God's mercy? [You just watch it, buddy.--ed.] Just sayin'. Time to decide. It's actually the question of the century: "What is the Church, and am I in it?" And for the record, I'm not an apologist. I'm a snark-pologist. CtC wants to think you into the Church, and love you in. I am not that guy.
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