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I'm gonna boast a bit here. Because I wasted a lot of time being inward-focused/bitter for no good reason. On the one hand, I'm single, 32, and I've hated (nearly) every second of it. On the other hand, once you make the decision, as far as you are able, not to take anything that isn't yours (and let's cut the crap, that's what lust is, gentlemen) a funny thing happens: beautiful women start hanging around. Paradoxically, you care less than you did. Lust makes you angry and possessive; godly love in charity leads you in giving of yourself without caring if you get anything back.

Don't get me wrong: I've been hit by the Love Lightning several times, including very recently. And you can be godly and prayerful, patient and gentle, and she still seems like a drug you'll never kick. It sucks. But you know what? If you love truly, you can keep your honor and her respect no matter what she decides to do.

That's what I figured out: My honor is more important than the outcome of the romance dance. Because that honor is our consciences and the law of the Word. There is nothing greater than a conscience at peace and in harmony with God's Law.

I was in the car with my boys the other night; they asked me who picked me up for Adoration the other night; she happens to be a very attractive woman. I told them, and they said, "Wow, JK, you and the women..." Hadn't noticed. [Liar.--ed.] Fine, I'm well aware. And I wouldn't mind, either. But if you're not free, you can't find out.

And I want to say I'm sorry to anyone who's been the victim of my bitterness and lack of freedom. Please forgive me, and forgive all of us. God be with you.

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